monday

yeah.

  

know

because the thing is...
the truth is you don't know me.
you don't really know me at all.

tan

i was in winterland for over a month, but now i'm back here,
i really need to get a tan :(

today

whyyy.
whats weird with these shitty days, nothing seems to go as you want it to.
today was one of those shitty days.

shitty.

first day of school. yay.
teachers had to mention exams and then give us homework on the first day.
even better.
did i mention that i actually hate school?
but seriously, it's only year 10. its still meant to be fun. 
everyone says "don't worry, year 10's the best you'll love it"
sure doesn't seem like it right now
why do i have to start a VCE.
yeah its a good thing to get it done early, but not if its going to get in the way of everything.

soifj2390ajfw98 23u4haosdhjfasdfa.
today was a shitty day.
a really really shitty day in general.

easier

easier said than done.

when you say it, it seems so simple.
but in reality? it's nowhere near that simple.

domo

[domo and girlfriend]

 

for vickie haha

title

i added a random title to my blog yesterday that i made really quickly.
it's kind've dodgy but...i'll make a nice one when i get some more time :)

hurts

 it hurt to watch,

and now?

we are no longer there to watch,

so instead,

it hurts to hear about it.

sigh.

AO

this year's AO has been slightly disappointing
first sharapova, such a let down.
then tomic lost after five rounds when i thought he'd actually have a chance of winning.
and now nadal retires after an injury.
does no one i want to get in...get in?
how stupid.

happy

ickle and Lardee make me happy :)

selfish

its so far away but i can't help thinking about it time to time now,
the thought just comes drifting back into my head.
but would you seriously just go?
what about me though?
i never considered it an option, and it'd probably be a bit late now, maybe.
so many questions that have no answers.
right now i'm too confused to think about it, maybe leave it till its closer,
to really think about it, but... what then?
the thing is it isn't even about me, its about you.
i should stop thinking like such a selfish bitch.

mosquito

mosquitoes should all die. my left foot is like the size of my head and is tomato red. ewww.
fuck you mosquito.

fruity

me and vickie have concluded that fruity cocktails are healthy.
and why? because

fruity cocktails = fruity = fruit = healthy.

hehe.

coffee

the coolest ice coffee you'll find;

the process


the result, yummm

[and yeah i forgot to turn on macro...oops]

goodbye

goodbye taiwan, hello melbourne
good times;;

the last picture is really dark i know but its the only way you can see the flowers under the light...

cocktail

dinner the other night was interesting: we went to a classy restaurant with friends and the waiter served up alcohol without even asking, and i was the only underage there. oh well i'm not complaining, haha, it was yum.

left to right; mysterious fruity cocktail; champagne; lemon water


by the end of the meal and before dessert, the parentals realised that my drinks were both basically finished. oops.

VVG

"I dream of painting and then I paint my dream"- Vincent Van Gogh

Today I visited the Van Gogh Art Exhibition, which had lots and lots of Van Gogh's paintings, which were shipped over here all the way from the original museum it was held in, in the Netherlands, and I have to say it was pretty amazing.

pretend

I hate the feeling when your about to cry, but you don't want to.

that's probably one of the worst feelings ever that have been experienced many times
you want to cry
you feel the tears coming
but you can't let them out
you have to hold back and pretend like nothings wrong
pretend not to be sad when inside it hurts so much.

fixed?

sigh. why is my blog still locked? its been past two buisness days already but its still locked.
i don't even know if this post will work... what now? i just want it fixed.

sigh

screw that last post...my blog is still locked and...
I want a premium picnik account

:( sigh.

LOCKED

phew that was scary. i was on my dashboard and it said been locked as it may be a 'spam blog'. no, its not a spam blog. it also said it would delete my blog soon and sent me a warning email too. thankfully i had it reviewed and it detected that i am human and my blog is hopefully now fine. thanks blogspot.

bands

hehe found these beer bands in the shop the other day
they say random things like;; total bitch, slut, whore. hehe

[just the picture is a bit blurry..oops]

69th

69th post! hehe.

immature spells i'm mature.

maybe

maybe you're just not who i thought you were.
or maybe you're just not the person i wanted you to be.

ring

i really want that camera ring...

victory

victory's within the mile, almost there don't give up now.

STYLE

packed

today was such a long, packed day...
went out for lunch with friends, with like 20 courses and 4 drinks and then was so full i felt like throwing up. oh and i was offered some whisky too hehe. then went shopping at 3 shopping centres. and on the bus i sat down but saw some old women with no seats so got up to give them my seat. was talking english obviously to viv, and so a few guys from this group of asian american guys got up and then started talking in english to me and insisted on me taking their seat haha. was funny. then found out classes for this year, 10L4 which is pretty okay actually...i guess. i wonder who found out to find class lists through studywiz? hrmm.

fake

somehow you still seem fake, every part of you is just fake fake fake.
a nice thing or two you do now really won't make up for much.
it really doesn't change anything or my opinion of you...

holiday

holiday
–noun
1. a time or period of exemption from any requirement, duty, assessment, etc.
2. a period of cessation from work or one of recreation; vacation.

we're on holidays. who gives homework to teenagers during holidays?
holidays are for having fun, not doing homework.
i cannot believe i actual have to do stacks of theory on the holidays, ugh.
fun, fun.

lolplop

just a normal msn conversation, predicting what will happen in 2012...


i think she meant 2012...not 2010. LOLPLOP!

sooo...

"Sooo...how many other girls are you saying this to?"

too many to count i bet...
i was stupid to have ever believed a word you said.

neighbours

we have stupid neighbours here.
ones who stomp around like fat elephants all day till 1am
ones who play saxophone loudly all afternoon
ones who sign off key karaoke all the time

please shut up.

warm

shorts and a tee on a warm, winter day.....
ironic, but, i like it.

APT

this is for a particular awkward palm tree person...hehe

"A picture can say a thousand words..."

but in this case just three words:

awkward palm tree

bitch

fucking bitch.
you know what? we were always there for you when you needed it.
so don't even think about running back to me because this time, because,
i won't be there for you.
you can solve your own problems yourself.
i hope this is the last post i ever write about you because your not even worth it.

wish

i wish for a lot of things,
but... when will these things come true?

NOT

i don't know how to get the message across any clearer.
y-o-u a-r-e n-o-t! so please stop saying you are.
you don't want to become like that.
stop putting yourself down and stop worrying about something you don't even need to worry about.
please.
thats all i can ask from you.

feelings

hmm weird feelings...
hungry, but don't want to eat.
tired, but don't want to sleep.
sad, but don't want to cry.

oranges

cgarkebe'tgere are irabges' translates to charlene there are oranges

hehe oops.

teacup

hehe, that teacup is kind've really cute.
i want one too.

chance

"I should have done it when I had the chance"

why didn't i?

hrmm

i shouldn't feel that way, but i still do sometimes.
i guess it's just annoying that i always seem miss out.
and the sad thing is it's not even any of your faults,
if its anyone's,
its mine.

insomnia

parents tell me to go to bed at 11.30 (early much?) and i agree because i got woken up really early that morning. lie down and listen to music. 12.00, still not tired, try to sleep...still don't fall asleep. 1.00, fuck, have a headache and a blocked nose, and still can't sleep. 2.00, fuck i'm thirsty, throat is drying up. 2.30, fall asleep! then wake up, whats the time? check phone, 2.35? WHAT THE FUCK. lie there listening to music still. 3.00, argh, still can't sleep. 3.30, um, what the fuck, the doors are shaking crazily, my head is a bit dizzy and i think i'm going crazy. get up, go find parents and ask for panadol, eat panadol and they tell me an earthquake just occurred. great. 4.00, wide awake. checks phone again, oh, 4.30. fuck this shit. at about 5am finally drifts off to sleep.

FUCK YOU INSOMNIA.

FML.

i'm never really hungry during meal time, but once its 10, 11pm i get hungry, and i eat all this junk.
and maybe i eat maccas a little too often.
but i should really stop eating so much junk because my favourite wranglers are now kind've tight, kind've really tight actually. FML.

abcdefghijklmnopqrStuvwxyz

i miss you abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz, and our crazy moments...hehe

bother

why should i even bother.

why do i even care.

why should i even care?

truth

"We Used To Talk For Hours On End & Now It's Like We Never Knew Each Other"

...mm, the truth hurts.

p,e,n,i,s

p,e,n,i,s spells...?

oh, spine. oops.

2010

wow, where did 2009 go?
i feel like time is pasting too fast, faster then i've realised.
and now is a new year.
2010? twenty ten? two thousand and ten?
whatever you want to call it.
its time to put behind us the shitty moments of 09.
and hope that this year will be fanfuckingtastic.
2010, here we come.