day

mainstream

mainstream is taking over everything...
literally everything.
i hate how alternative and indie is becoming mainstream too.
what are we going to do?
last year people didn't even know what docs were, now you see people with them everywhere.
high waisted shorts and floral are worn by everyone now too.

chimpanzee

a chimpanzee in a russia zoo apparently has a drinking and smoking problem and has to be sent to rehab...haha wow. animal rehab?

tea

umm, bird shaped tea bags?

i want one!

and i don't even drink tea...

boing

boing

scared

i'm scared. aren't we all?
it's like we know what the future holds,
we know the truth of whats going to happen.
maybe i hoped that somehow something magical would happen,
and everything would go back to normal.
but it can't, things can't go back to how they were now.
there is no turning back now.
the truth is confirmed now,
we know how it's going to end, and when.
that scares me. 

PARTY

i'm sick of so much shit right now.
i need to have some serious fun.
someone should have a massive party and we can all go wild,
and dance the whole night.
because i need that right now.

grr.

grr.

i'm over you.

over you and your bullshit.

and it's about fucking time i think.

words.

words.mean.nothing.

words mean nothing sometimes.
sometimes you just can't believe things people say.
because sometimes, people say things with such truth but they don't even mean it in any way.
it's just a load of bullshit.
there's no point saying something if you don't mean it, if you don't do it.
because it's just meaningless.
it's pointless.
it's stupid.

young

 old enough to know it's a bad idea, young enough not to care.

picnic

*starfish turtle talk talk talk* then,
starfish; hey have some
*passes drink*
turtle; oh sure
*drinks*
turtle; wait what is it?
starfish; vodka.

haha :) fun fun night.
twilight picnic '10

drifts

time or distance causes people to drift apart. sometimes both.
at first you still think about them, you talk to them even though you may not see them anymore, you still miss them.
time goes on though, you still don't see them.
what happens when you stop talking to them and you still don't get to see them?
you continue to miss them,
but eventually,
you talk less. you think about them less.
time drifts you apart,
it's true.

HP

admit it,
you laughed.

experimenting

slr's

dark room

chemicals 

developing

film

black and white photos

testers

experimenting
photograms

'the tank'

photography.

i like that.

would

cupcakes!

those birthday cupcakes really made my day,

i didn't even see it coming.

hehe.

RL

i swear it's been ages since i've felt so touched.
you gave me such an amazing surprise, a few actually, thank you so, so much.
i didn't see it coming at all, which makes it just that more special.
i'm so glad we became friends, i don't know what i'd do without you!
so you have to remember this too okay?
TIFFANY LIU WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU RL!

accepted

why can we never be accepted for who we are?
we always compare ourselves to other people and we're constantly getting compared to others too.
that we're constantly getting compared to other people,
it's like we're just not good enough.
but must we have to be compared to every other person in every other possible way?

thanks,

thanks for pretending to care about my birthday before it actually came up,
making it seem like such a big deal,
and not even bothering to say those two little words on the day.
remind me why i care again?

23/2

finally 15 today, and yeah, i'm just a little younger than the rest.
birthday was definitely better than i thought, thanks to some pretty amazing people who made my day.
haha they were going to sing happy birthday to me in the quad (it was quad day today) with like EVERYONE,
but i had already left in boredom by then. haha. which is kind've good, that would've been embarassing...
but i'm so grateful to those people who made the day so special for me :) especially SL and RL and VL squared

maths

8 minutes till my birthday.
and i'm sitting here doing last minute maths cramming for a maths test tomorrow.
yay.
surds should die.

i don't think my birthday will be a massive deal but
hopefully it'll be okay.

CL

today my sister told me that the birthday present she got me is partly red,
i asked her if she got me a pair of Christian Louboutin's. oh how i wish haha.

yay

got to borrow slr home for the weekend :)
had to share one between two in class going around taking photos of letters of our suburb
finished off the last few photos in that film just then,
so now i have a whole new roll of film with 24 shots to use this weekend, yay!

sleep.

no more sleep in's from monday to sunday?
plus the times i'm going to bed?
maybe that's why i fell asleep in class today...oh well.

i've given up on this thing called sleep.

matter

is it genuine concern?
or just a fake character you're putting on?
i want it to be the first one,
but how do i tell?
how will i ever know?
does it really matter now?
i think i'm over caring now.

TGI

[this is from a while ago but,]
the three of us had our usual TGI Friday's gathering, but it was a bit of a disappointment...
chicken fingers cost 15, yet they gave us 3 little chicken fingers and a few chips and that was it.
so i left a message to let them know how we felt;

diner

apparently when i put on my glasses with my costume i looked like a diner stripper, or a prostitute.
thanks guys.

from this... (teasing process)

  to this... (the result)

to this. (afterwards and make up less)

and also some shots from the day;

gloomy

the story of gloomy bear;

Gloomy, an abandoned little bear, is rescued by Pitty (the little boy). At first, he is cute and cuddly, but becomes more wild as he grows up. Since bears do not become attached to people like dogs by nature, Gloomy attacks Pitty even though he is the owner. So Gloomy has blood on him from biting and/or scratching Pitty.

hehe. thats the actual story.

HIGHHH

storm + red fanta + orange fanta + sprite and whatever else = major fucking crazy high
which includes spastically dancing on the chairs in hungry jacks, screaming and laughing, spinning in circles and the list goes on...

want

at this rate? my social life is basically going straight down the drain.
but that doesn't matter to you does it?
the fact that it's upsetting me doesn't matter at all.
the fact that it matters to me?
yeah that doesn't matter either does it.
that my weekends are packed with chinese school and such.
it doesn't matter that i'm getting pressured in every way to do well too,
that i have such high expectations from people to do well.
it's easy to say: oh well ignore them.
but its not that easy.
i don't want this. 

believed

fashion

fashion design and photography are by far the best subjects at school.

chase

" We chase the people who ignore us, and ignore the people who adore us. "

why is that? 
we all do it but...why?
we always chase those who we don't mean much to,
yet we still ignore those who we mean more to.

strong

and when i thought my situation was bad,
yours turns out to be even worse.
i'm so, so sorry. i hope everything will be okay.
because i know it's not easy,
and i've been in the same boat as you,
i still am in a way,
and i know how it feels,
so stay strong babe, i'm always here for you no matter what.

concerts

wow house concerts tomorrow. the big day is finally here.
after staying back afterschool to help out props every single day since school started.
after spending every lunch rehearsing the dance and some early mornings too.
after all that stress,
the day is finally here.
lets hope everything goes smoothly. especially the dance haha.
oh and i got an extra part today.
at the start of scene 3, me and a 'guy' stand at the front of the stage
and he comes checking me out
and says a line about my face or something...
and i give him a 'wtf. fuck off' face in disgust and storm away.
hehe. its kind've fun.
house concerts '10 here we come.

mixed.

mixed messages,

mixed feelings,

mixed thoughts.

enough.

 

do you ever feel like you're just not good enough?
sometimes you're just not the best, only ever second, third, best.
as much as you try,
as hard as you try,
or maybe as much as you want to be?
but the thing is, you're just not good enough.

subway

haha funny people...

rebellion.

formspring

yeah, i gave in too...
formspring me:

http://www.formspring.me/tiffliu

floral

i kind've have a thing for floral...
which reminds me my floral skirt should be coming in the mail soon. hehe.

alone

 

don't you ever feel so alone sometimes?
likes it's just you and no one else.
just you,
alone,
in your own sad little world.

preview

"three words. eight letters. say it and i'm yours."

saw the preview for the next gossip girl episode today,
now i can't wait till march...i can't wait another month.
i've already waited two months. ugh.

yay...

what is there to look forward about my birthday this year again?
swimming. ew. and i can't even get out of it...
no photography and no textiles. great.
and best of all a maths test. wtf.
oh and maybe a few presents too, i hope.
yay. best birthday ever.

grrr.

grrr.

like you understand.

fans.

fans are such sluts. they just start blowing people when they're turned on.

gaga

haha oh lady gaga.
first she gets cookies of her, now barbies?

TWLOHAD

tomorrow is a special day;

to write love on her arms day 2010

lets hope we see lots of people with love written on their arms tomorrow,
i remember getting screamed at for having it last year in outlook week. oh well. 

and yeah. thats my arm. haha.

rain

loud thunder,
rain pouring down,
puddles with ripples from the rain drops,
bright flashes of lightning,
car tires making big splashes everywhere,
flooded paths,

it's been a while.

photography

developing black and white photos in the dark room was fun but,
used an slr for the first time in photography today.
it was even more fun, fun, fun!
cannot wait till next lesson.
its one of the few decent subjects at school and isn't actually as draining as other subjects...
i actually like art. art is fun.

and its 11.11 now, make a wish.

depressed

Why are people asking me if I'm depressed?

pain

i used plain old arial to type that but i think it kind've works...