want

at this rate? my social life is basically going straight down the drain.
but that doesn't matter to you does it?
the fact that it's upsetting me doesn't matter at all.
the fact that it matters to me?
yeah that doesn't matter either does it.
that my weekends are packed with chinese school and such.
it doesn't matter that i'm getting pressured in every way to do well too,
that i have such high expectations from people to do well.
it's easy to say: oh well ignore them.
but its not that easy.
i don't want this.