formspring#2

wow new formspring for what 48 hours?
and people are already trying to 'abuse' me, it's quite amusing really.
my friend wanted me to get one and i felt like a new one so here it is;

http://www.formspring.me/tiffanyturtle

asian

Monday, 31st May 2010 12:57am
j-babe: i should probably start latin..
me: i should probably start english..

aren't we asian, leaving studying till a few hours/ the day before exams..

1:48am
j-babe: shit it's 1.48!
me: haven't you started..
j-babe: NOO, FUCKKK

decision

Bad Decisions = Good Stories.
basically sums up my friday,
what a crazy day, biggest adventure in a while i must say haha.
so, so, so much fun.
except maybe the back at school and at home part..
mm will write a post explaining the day some other time,
actually doing exam revision right now..

munt

please don't let me munt. please please please.
please wait till at least after 11 when my parents are asleep,
if not, what will i tell them.
argh.
it's coming soon..fuck.

true

no matter what happens,

just remember:

stupid

tonight i finally let out a secret,
to both my best friend and my boyfriend at the same time.
both whom i trust completely, just that it was hard on..how to say it.
i feel better somehow though, letting them know.
i know it wasn't the smartest way of stress relief,
but at the time it seemed like the best way to escape the pain,
i hoped that if nothing else could, doing that would take it away for me.
i didn't think, i just did it, but i won't do it anymore.
it was stupid and i know that.
there are scars there to haunt me and remind me..

let's..

just you and me.

weird

another one of those nights where i just feel weird,
and stressed,
so then i eat, and then feel really sick.
ugh..need to get back on that anti-junk-food-diet.

redbull

best morning ever with chinese/ 3am party/ wag buddy,
beat's history and english any day..
fuck exam revision.

hungry jacks crowns, red bull and sundaes, sunny spots, smashing red bull bottle (unintentional), photos on self timer, hiding faces, being stupid, and a little shopping..

rawr

mm been so busy doing who knows what that i haven't had time to post in a while..
had a pretty good weekend for once, good saturday morning anyways :)
got to see the amazing boyfriend during chinese school, wagging some class and then making up some crazy munting story with some chinese school friends haha, two major babes.
school this week..learning last few things before mainly exam revision in every class..
so missed..just a few classes this week :)
which reminds me, exams in a week.
why do i not care? why aren't i studying?

disappointment

control

reblogged

we can’t even control our emotions anymore, how do you expect me to be able to control my life?

things are just so hard sometimes.

Reasons

 Reasons why most people saying "Nothing" when asked "What's wrong?" 

1. They don’t feel like explaining because they’re afraid you won’t understand.
2. It’ll make them feel worse if they do because the subject is just being brought up again.
3. They don’t know what’s wrong.
4. Privacy / Personal space
5. Afraid of being judged.
6. They don’t want anyone worrying about them.
7. Tired of hearing the lie that “It’ll be alright.”
8. It's obviously about you. 
9. They just don’t want to talk about it

happened

a friend talked to be the other day about how she realised how much she had changed,
and how much everything had changed, and what she was like now.
i agreed with her,
what's happened to us?

anything

i don't know anything anymore.

bludge

mm good day..
morning was bludge classes, art and watched a movie in chinese.
decided to wag house sport with a few others periods 3/4,
so went to maccas for a bit then headed down to camberwell and stayed there for a bit,
and tried on lots of shoes,
and pretty sure we saw the vice principal down at camberwell too... 
then back to school for chinese take away, then pe periods 5/6.
i like bludge days :)

wander

bill

did i mention i got my phone bill yesterday?
last month i went over my 29 cap but not by too much..
over 700..nearly 800 texts alone and parents blew it.
this month?
texts doubled, with nearly 1500 sent...
and phone bill tripled. 
$29 cap up to about $100.
guess whose broke now?

hurting

it hurts, a lot. 

more than anyone realises.

i'm hurting..a lot.

think

The stars lean down to kiss you,
and I lie awake and miss you

I'll doze off safe and soundly,
but I'll miss your arms around me

The silence isn't so bad, till I look at my hands and feel sad,
because the spaces between my fingers are right where yours fit perfectly

As many times as i blink tonight,
I'll think of you.

torturing

Torturing yourself with sad music when your super depressed.

maybe a little too often nowadays.. 

without

without some people in my life,
i seem to be just a complete mess..
without them,
i'm just not me.

..ing

trying,

crying,
dying. 

pieces

I'm falling to pieces..

I'm falling to pieces.

-

"i don't know, this photo reminds me of us, how she used to be, how we used to be."

mm well,

i agree, this photos reminds me of us too, how i used to be, how we used to be.

i know it's frustrating, i know you are all trying to help,

but the truth is i'm not lying to any of you, the ones who love me,

i just don't know what to say anymore. 

i would say i'm sorry but there isn't any point anymore,

sorry means nothing now.

i'm not exhausted of lying, because i'm not lying to any of you.

i've just stopped saying anything at all..

which yeah, i know, really doesn't help either.

i don't know what's happened to me.

i hate myself so much right now,
so i wouldn't be surprised if you all did too.

killing

"I'm not living, I'm just killing time."

you said that to me once, and it scared me a little.
but now i feel it too.

fair

someone stop the fucking tears already.
i think you and me both got our fair share of crying today.
why's our life so shit?

awake

sorry to all those people who have made an effort to convince me to go to sleep early,
for maybe weeks now.
but now that i'm actually trying to make an effort to go before..3 or 4 or whatever it is,
i can't, insomnia strikes again.
[and no stef, i haven't been drinking coffee.]

please.

please let my 11.11 wish from today come true, please.
some of the other ones came true,
others didn't..
please let this one?

hurt

wow, maybe you don't know how much that hurt.
it did, more than you'd ever know.

irreplaceable

In order to be irreplaceable, one must always be different.
- Coco Chanel.

alone

cutest?

Step 1: Go to google.com

Step 2: Type in "Who's the cutest?"

Step 3: Click "I'm feeling lucky"

capable

you don't know what you're capable of doing.
but you are perfectly capable,
you just have no idea.

writers

writers block.
couldn't write for ages but hopefully it's gone and i'll be back to posting every day :)

disappointments

No expectations, No disappointments.

simple as that.

yet

can i give up yet?