messed

i am completely, utterly messed up,
and slightly fucked up in the head.
maybe i knew all along,
or maybe i just realised now,
what a mess i am.
but for those who can still deal with it,
still care, still want and still love me? 
they'll never know how much that means to me,
how much i admire them,
or how much they mean to me.

"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." 

as Marilyn Monroe once said..
though it's an understatement,
because i'm really fucking insecure,
i make lots of mistakes,
and i'm quite out of control,
and definitely hard to handle..
but i guess it's a quote to keep in mind.