joint

haven't been posting much lately,
been working on some joint blogs with friends,
will be back posting regularly very soon though :]

until

until today.

i thought i was doing well,
until today.
i thought i was coping okay,
until today.
i thought the tears might just have stopped visiting me,
until today.

space

i miss having personal space,
it's not that much to ask for is it?
i just miss having my own room,
my own space,
my own bed,
my place to lie down and cry,
and let it all out.
here this is no personal space,
i have no space, no room,
no place to just lie down and cry.
i've resorted to the bathroom, the shower,
the one place left,
where i'm left alone,
given some personal space.
i just need some time alone,
and i can't even have that.

resorting

so i've been resorting to two things lately.
1. comfort food
2. retail therapy
which means i'm going to become fat, and even more broke than i already am.
wew..
i need to stop pigging out,
and maybe get a job, if i can ever be bothered,
and if i'm ever allowed.
sighs.

emptiness

maybe i should have something to eat,

but food won't take this emptiness away,

i'm hungry for you my love.

is there a remedy for hating,

every second that i'm without you.

all this life is all for love,

it's the only road i'll choose.

maybe.

sigh these long, hot days start to drag on and on again.
nights seem to go on forever, when i lie there wide awake, not being able to sleep.
as it gets later, thoughts get more negative maybe.
i as usual think about people, how i miss them, how i miss melbourne.
then i think about how they're all still having fun back there,
the parties, the gatherings, or just going out.
they're probably fine without me anyway,
it's probably not as hard for them,
maybe.

shot

June: The pilots are dead!
Milner: Yeah, they've been shot.
June: By who?
Milner: By me. No, actually, I shot the first pilot, then he accidentally shot the second pilot. It's just one of those things.

knight and day, good movie :]

just

I just kinda miss you.. alot.... like alot alot.

yep, true story.